Dave's over at my house and were playing with pictures of ourselves as babies for our shoebox deal.

He's using my old manga markers that smell like balls.

Friday should promise some fun shit. I fucking love Ghanian drumming and having Kaira around. I MISSSSS CHUUU ♥

I got switched to Geometry now, I feel a little bit better.

I'm drawing good things.

I feel very deflated with the fact that I probably won't have any birthday money left after a few weeks as I have things to pay off and register for. It's hardly a good feeling. Detour Reg, Daisho room, Daisho Reg, Wig, various cosplay expenses, gelly roll pens (FUCKING EXPENSIVE AS TITS), brown paper book, copic refills...

We all can't survive on 120 dollars anymore.

I'd only have about 20 bucks after all that. I'm not whining to anyone because it's no ones fault, but that's a fucking short leash.

I just need some cash for myself to enjoy, I feel like I throw too much money at events and then don't have a good enough time. Detour was a good waste of 60 dollars. NBC was not worth 80 for hotel.

Overall, I'm really sick of all this business and just need the week to end now, after all this. The weather is getting to me, and as the hours go by I know I'm going to be spending my birthday just like last one, face down in bed.

I don't need a good birthday. I need 364 good days. I need to get away from the snow. I need to sit for a long time in the corner and wish school away from me.

More over, school sucks without you and life in general is very hard.

STAND BACK AMIGO. THIS LOOKS LIKE AN X-MEN SITUATION.

I think I'm going to get Marvel 1602 with my birthday money, or maybe a boxed set of X-Men Evolution if I can find it.

Drowning yourself in your childhood is much better then worrying about the future.

In any case, I want some goddamn X-men comics.

I basically got home and slept up until 7:45 because I did not feel like doing ANYTHING AT ALL. Then I had some chocolate cereal and I've been looking for comics to read online.

I'm actually reading a lot of things lately. I have a good 3 books of Wallflower to finish, I read 2/3 of Clockwork Orange, which needs to go back to the library... I finished perks of being a wallflower which I couldn't truthfully enjoy after having read Catcher in the Rye, which is an older version of the same old stuff.



Apparently Northstar is gay and dies of Mutant AIDS or something...

huh.

Me: So I wanted to buy you one of these but there wasn't enough time (Gestures to phone charms)

Crispin: What is it?

Me: It's a little Jeremiah!

Crispin: Oh Jeremiah.... he's so crazy....

Me: I knoooooowww. He's my Favvvvvorite.... I just watched the last episode this morning. I'm not going to say anything, but oh... oh god...

Crispin: Oh god...

Me: Yeah. I made you a print.

Crispin: Oh cool! (Signs)

Me: So have you done anything with R2 yet?

Crispin: I haven't got to yet, but I know we are jumping RIGHT into it. The last thing I remember doing was that crazy line... what was it? Oh... god... It's long and we argued so much over the line... But on the DVD's... they have this little radio drama things...

Me: You mean the picture books?

Crispin: Yeah those, those are...

Me: A lot of you screaming and crying and spewing?

Crispin: Yeah.

Me: He's so crazy...

Crispin: I know...



YOU'RE GOING TO CARRY THAT WEIGHT

Today was shit.

I started a new print and fucked it up, wasting half a bottle of Ink and 2 hours of my time.

I had a headache the majority of the day.

My computer has a virus that is fucking with my internet drive so I can't get online with it until I either reinstall or wipe my fucking laptop.

I've come to the conclusion I pretty much won't be able to do Gino until I have money again, thus pretty much fucking over my friends.

Whatever. Just fuck it.

I'm falling back in love again. I loved them a lot when I was in 6th and 7th grade... I miss happy puppy talent.

Fuck Algebra 2. Serious buisness. This class is a lot Bull that I don't understand.

Everything else I have A's in. Wow.

Hopefully Jerry will get back to us soon about this foreign exchange buisness, so I know what the fuck I'm doing next year, and hopefully I can negotiate credits with this school.

Me and David have a pretty good understanding of what we want to do for the Detour cosplay contest. All it takes is a phone call at 2:30 in the morning with some pimp voices. Pretty excited.

SG&MS

TIME IS RUNNING DOWN. YAY ♥

( It was a good time to be a kid.  )
Goodbye childhood.
 

This is all it takes to keep me from crying and laughing at the same time. Doing both until vomit comes out the sides of my mouth and I start Darcia-slamming my goddamn head.

I got meds today. Thank god.

You might think this post is meaningless...

Fuck it all. I love you. I hate you.

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It's been playing in my head all day.

ALL DAY.

AND I THINK I KNOW WHY.

I really miss everyone.



Not Gunna lie.

I had fun today, despite the fact right now I feel like my insides are mostly fish swill they use to bait sharks. This is happening a lot now and I have no idea what it is. Food Poisoning doesn't last this long. Not that I've eaten raw fish or sour milk.

My legs and arms are really weak and I'm dizzy to the point that went I yawn I see spots... fuck.

I got to put a shit ton of sempai's movies/TV shows on my ipod. At least 15 GB of straight Anime and various other shit. Got like... V for Vendetta and Emperor's New groove... fucking Batman Begins. Nyaaaaaah.

Simultaneously AIMing David, Nick, and Jimmy. All of them Bawing over my state of illness.

Fucking school tomorrow...


Fuck.

I'm very tired.

The parent that does care about me keeps snapping on me.

I don't really need more then 3 more days of school.

Autumn is coming.

Apathy sets in.

Happy fucking September.

I've been on myspace too much lately. I revamped my profile a ton so it looks less....white. Mega helps from clumsywolf 

I'm featuring some fun stuff on my page. Scoot over there to see it (Make sure you add me first)

I like the new layout. Fail html skills are still fail though.

I got this today though:

He's so fucking beautiful and epic. Screams when you press his buttons. Fun loving, crazy.

Enjoy your shitty barbie dolls

(Picture is actually of tehseto  's Jeremiah. Credit credit credit)

 

I watched cloverfield. That movie was interestingly awful. Interesting in the new look. Tons of plotholes, bad story set up. Boredom. Etc... it was a waste of time. You could get more satisfaction out of playing half life, it's basically the same thing. Head crabs and crowbars. Headcrabs and crowbars...

I'm also very dizzy and disoriented from watching it. I can barely take long car rides. 10+ minutes of aefkj;dsfaijsdafksfd gets on my nerves.

Rewatched The Ring for the thousandth time too. I missed that movie. It gives me so much hope in life. Aside from the fact that I'm the product of Pokemon, Wraiths, and Jedi's, I think it's safe to say donnie darko and Samara fucked and had me too. Except I like horses. I don't kill them.

Tomorrow means I finish off shopping for all this bullshit. I'm getting my hair cut, some necessary socks and underwear, and probably some new copic markers. Fuck it, lets go with some prisma's too. I've spent more then 100 dollars over my time drawing on just black copics, I'm really sick of it too. Because the moment they just start to run out, they get so light when they need to be black as hell. So my shit turns unmixed and gray. I hate it.

I think I'm also going to pick up some different gray's too. More Warm gray, Gray is forever my favorite copic to work with. Bitches don't even know.

I finished up daycamp today, Monday I go in for cleaning the place up and then I'm done. Tuesday and Thursday I got daycare and then next next Wednesday is school.



Basically.

I got a con/ference next month. At least I have that to look foreword to. I've been in a dull state of mind since North. 

I heard Kakkoi just fucking bombed by the way. I'm really glad I didn't go, as it's run by the same people who run SogenShitfuckcon. Jenna went, and she said it was awful; not enough staff, unorganized, no one checking badges.

Club has mentioned Anime Iowa as a trip. I am very bubbly with this idea. MUST SEE SPENCER AGAIN.

TJ got a Deviantart. He put up some stuff and said Hi and everything. And I was just complaining to Kichi about how he promised to make one. 


You really think there's a way out... funny.

I have no motivation to do anything right now. None. I got myself some 2nd degree burns with exploding shaving wax so my index and middle finger on my right hand and they are both red and raw while the skin continues to pus and fall off. Typing this hurts. Bad.

So I can't draw, I can barely write, I hate everything. My hand throbs and is trying to heal while hair is getting in it.

Fuck this. I'm not even going to talk about my day.  It doesn't matter.

Got to go see David at work. I got a tour of the bakery and got lots of floury hugs. I got him a star wars pin at th Exhibit and I got to eat his pancakes.

I am enjoying this.